Dr. D's Guide to Killing Your Loved Ones

A very different question this week:

"What can I put in someone's IV that will kill them fast?"

Now don't start judging yet...

This person was writing out of compassion not hate. Someone they love has a terminal illness and asked them to do this if the pain got too bad. (Think: Clint Eastwood in Million Dollar Baby)

It is a hard question. I feel for the person who wrote because I have been in this situation many times.

The Moment of Truth

There is the moment when doctors say, "I'm sorry, but there is nothing we have that will stop your illness. The disease will win shortly and you will die."

We are all going to die one day—many of us from illnesses that are long and painful. Everyone mentally acknowledges this as a concept, but when you are on the receiving end of such news it still hits you like a ton of bricks.

It is not uncommon for people to get in a very dark place after this news. Despair, fear, and hopelessness are understandable emotions given the circumstances.

Doctor D is by no means the final word on such a heavy topic, but perhaps I can offer some perspective from a doctor who has accompanied many patients on that difficult final path...

A Cry for Help

Depression is miserable. Anyone who has depression can attest that the mental anguish of hopelessness can be just as terrible as the worst physical pain. Often depression is triggered by traumatic life events.

The good news is that depression is not the end. Most people recover from depression, especially depression that is due to horrible news.

We all work very hard to convince a suicidal but otherwise healthy 20 year old that life can be better and their depression can be treated. Why should we not similarly address the depression of terminally ill patients? Whether someone's life will be decades or days they can live to the fullest when supported by people who love them.

Often when a dying person asks someone to kill them it is a cry for help. In their despair they are asking, "Am I worth anything anymore?"

The answer they need to hear is, "Yes, you are still worth everything to me! I may not be able to save your life, but I will cherish and honor you to the very end."

Every terminal patient that ever asked me to die, they later expressed to me their joy in life and how much they value their time once they had made peace with what was happening. Depression can be treated allowing people to pass with a peaceful heart.

Do not doubt the value of a human spirit, even during the final hours! Doctor D once watched a dying woman do more good during her last day of life in a hospital bed than he has done in all his years of practice.

Fear of Pain

Hurting sucks. We all hate pain and want to avoid it. The thought of dying in pain is intolerable even to consider. And a lot of fatal conditions are also very painful. Many people who otherwise are at peace with dying might contemplate suicide to avoid the pain at the end.

I believe that the field of Hospice is perhaps the finest breakthrough medicine has made in recent decades. Hospice is care for those with terminal illnesses.

Hospice is the art and science of comfort, and as a discipline they have made amazing discoveries in the treatment of people in the dying process.

There is no reason that anyone with terminal illness needs to die alone and in pain these days.

It is sad, but many people still don't know about Hospice. (I guess it's because they don't have their own TV dramas like every other field of medicine. I suppose the ratings wouldn't be good for a medical drama when the patient dies every episode.) Many patients seem shocked when I tell them there are teams of medical professionals that are skilled at managing every aspect of care at the end of life.

Not only do they insure you don't physically suffer, but they address the emotional and spiritual pain of facing death as well. Hospice patients are able to pass in peaceful environments or even in their home. There is support for the family as well. And yes, insurance does cover it.

Many patients are skeptical if Hospice can really deliver.

People figure that if fighting an illness was miserable, then loosing to it must be torture. Back in the old days that may have been the case, however, hospice has an advantage: they aren't trying to cure you. The very thing that seems like the problem they use to create solutions. Without needing to cure anything they can avoid any procedure that causes pain, and they don't have to avoid treatments that might not be good for your illness because fixing your illness is no longer the goal. Your comfort becomes the ultimate goal.

I have never seen a hospice patient die in pain.

Some patients wonder if they can trust the doctors and nurses involved with Hospice to really care about their pain. "Aren't a lot of doctors jerks who enjoy hurting patients who complain too much?" I admit, there are some callous doctors, but I have yet to see a single one involved in the hospice system that wasn't about as kind as a human can be.

Please don't touch the IV!

So in response to the question: Your loved one is asking for your help, but it is important to recognize help they need. Putting down your loved one like a dog is not the solution—despite what Clint Eastwood says.

Love, support, respect, and connecting them to resources that can help them through this difficult time is the right and humane approach.

Doctor D always loves to hear your thoughts. Have you ever had someone you care about feel this way? Have medical professionals ever wanted to help someone die?

Anyone have any experiences with Hospice?

I realize that suicide is a difficult topic with lots of emotion on all sides. Please share opinions and discuss with respect.

Putting Down Pets And People

I read a very poignant post by Neo-Conduit this morning about her terminally-ill friend who considered suicide. I was reminded of a question I have often been asked by patients:

We put down our dying pets humanely. Why can't we be so good to people in the same situation?

It is a good question that needs an answer. Doctor D used to just say, "Doctors shouldn't kill patients," but that really didn't respond to the suffering of people facing terminal illness.

I am glad that euthanasia is illegal where I work. Doctors have the ability to keep a dying person comfortable without putting them down like dogs. Human beings are not dogs. Doctor D was good to his elderly dog when he euthanized her, but there is a huge difference between killing a pet and a person.

The most important approach to suffering people is a deep respect for their value as human beings. That respect motivates me to care for their pain. It motivates me stop treatments when they no longer desire them. It also motives me to never give a deadly medicine—even if it is requested.

The approach of death can be disorienting and terrifying. There is a spiritual suffering that is often greater than any physical pain. In moments of hopelessness ending one's own life may seem like the only escape. A person asks him or herself, "What is the value of this dying thing that is me?"

Doctor D has had many patients nearing the end of life say to him, "I wish I could die now!" I have yet to have a single one be disappointed when I respond, "It is ethically wrong for me to end your life, but I will stay with you till the last breath and make sure you are comfortable and respected."

Suffering and dying people need to know they have some value that is more than the sum of days they have left. The deepest respect of all is reminding them they have the most valuable thing of all: a human soul.

Quality of Life is a subjective judgment. I honor my patients by letting them decide what is a quality life and what is not. Value of a Life is different. The value of every person's life is infinite. I honor that value by never killing a human being for any reason.

I already know Nurse K is going to give me a hard time for such a touchy-feely post. Doctor D promises to get back to some fun shit soon.

...But before we get back to fun questions what do you think of Euthanasia?